Who is 'me'

Who is the real me, the me I do not know,
The me that was left behind all those years ago.
Who would I be now, what would have I become,
Had I not lived in two parts but rather as in one.

Would have I enjoyed my life, carefree and happy,
Or would I be the same as now miserable and crappy.
Did I have such confidence, determined to be better,
Push myself to greater things never to be fettered.

I am not him anymore, I grew a different path,
Twisted sense of life due to someone elses wrath.
Confidence destroyed, unable to control my thoughts,
Appalling images replaying within a mind so fraught.